abstract, ne??;;hopeless romantic v.eleven

Sup guys. Phew, exams and stuff are FINALLY OVER. I've decided that instead of writing short blogs within short periods of time, it's much easier for me to sit down and write super long, drawn out blogs not so often. Kammi, my lovely hostess, is helping me in my conquest to finally have a domain of my own! I'm super excited, though I'm worried about getting shit done because my desktop's connectivity is being utterly retarded and my laptop actually belongs to my mother, so none of my personal files are kept on it. blah

I have a few ideas for a domain name, but I guess I'm not telling anyone what it's gonna be until I make it! Wooo~ So excited! Anyway, onto ramblings about my life. tada

So yeah, last time I posted, I spoke of "8D~". Well, his name is Gerome, and he's officially my ex-boyfriend now, LOL. Gosh it seems like i go through them so fast. We dated for like a month and 2 weeks. It was going pretty good, but I realized in the last few weeks of us being together that I wanted to be single. It wasn't his fault, it was just..I dunno. It's so hard to explain. Anyway, I kindof originally wanted to break up with him, but I was to chicken to. But, something happened to force that action. My friend Ashley had a party where there were two things that brought about my demise: Alcohol and Boys. So, you add two and two together and the sum is: I cheated. Now, I'm the type that thought I would never be the one to cheat. I'm too good for that. I would never do that to someone, hurt them like that. Especially after being cheated on before. But it was my first time being seriously drunk, and I didn't really know how I would act. Well, I was absolutely stupid and irresponsible. I regret that night entirely, and after I sobered up, I called my boyfriend and told him the whole story. He was ticked, but not directly at me. He was more understanding then I thought he would be. I told him I wanted to break up because I couldn't trust myself to not hurt him anymore, and also because I needed to be single in the first place. I thought to myself.."this is high school. I'm supposed to be having fun and living it up, not restraining myself with a relationship. If I feel like I'm being kept from things I want to do because of being in a relationship, then it's obviously not for me." I mean, yeah I still wanna get drunk with my buddies and party and maybe make-out with a guy, but I don't want to feel guilty about it and hate myself after it happens. I guess that's being selfish, but I'm really starting to not care about what other people want. I've tried to hard in the past to please people and it's only made me end up in a bad disposition. It's about time I start doing stuff for myself!
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Haha. But yeah, moving on!

My friend Brynn and I are like the closest we've ever been! Now that we have cars..we can hang out all the time. Even though Brynn technically doesn't have her car now because she's grounded. It's a kinda funny story how she got grounded. Actually it's not funny, but I dunno. Okay, so Brynn snuck out to chill with this guy Sammie. (I guess the funny part was that they ended up kissing all night, LOL.) But yeah, her mom heard her come back in, and she accidentally parked her car in a different spot. So she had to fess up to her crimes and inevitably got grounded from life pretty much. Sucks big time, especially since it was hard to keep in touch with her this past week when we had to get a big project done. The project has been consuming my life this past week..it's really pissing me off. I'm still not even completely finished with it! grr

Anyway, the project is based on the drama The Glass Menagerie by Tenessee Williams. I won't even explain what the drama is about, it's pretty much weird as hell. You'd have to read it for yourself. But yeah, our project was to rewrite the ending with our own alternate ending. Easy right? Wrong. Not easy. We have to stay true to character, so we can't make the characters do anything they wouldn't do in the original text. Also, we have to use style imitation and write it exactly how Tenessee Williams would. That was not so hard, since T.W. had no faith in his audience and thought they were stupid, so his writing style is very simple. But, writing the actual script was challenging. Writing stage directions and things like that were sorta tricky in the begininng, but I think we got the hang of it in the end. But the thing is..we actually have to act our rewritten ending out. YES! Do you know how long I've been itching to get on stage?! That part made me so happy. I get to play the role of Amanda. There are 4 characters in the entire play: Tom, Laura (Tom's sister), Amanda (Tom and Laura's mother), and Jim (a regular guy). Amanda is so loud and obnoxious and I can't WAIT to be her prissy southern self on stage! 8D<333

Hm, on a random note: I kinda like someone a little. I wouldn't really call it liking him, because we don't really talk and don't know eachother well. But he's cute, and I want to talk to him. I'm really bad about like, going up to someone who I might potentially like. I get very flustered. blah

Oh well! Lately, I've been reading a bunch of books! I recently just read 3 books: Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer. They are personally some of the greatest books I've ever read in my life. I heard at the lunch table the other day that these books were "as bad as a fanfiction!", but I disagree. I never thought I could ever fall in love with a character so much. Edward Cullen is as charming in my mind as he is to Bella Swan. But then again, he is supposed to be magnificently beautiful, AND a vampire. Who wouldn't want to date a vampire! Screw you, Bella. But I love you anyway, even if you are a tad over-emotional. And Edward is overprotective. And Jacob...JUST RUINS THE ENTIRE STORY. BELLA IS SUPPOSED TO BE WITH EDWARD, STOP INTERFERING YOU DUMB DOG! Aha, thats how I feel about Jacob and his Quileute self. I love you Edward ;___;. I'm about to begin reading a book titled Haunted by Chuck Palahnuik. I've heard it was crazy, creepy, and absolutley amazing. Yay, another book to get sucked in to! I've been reading up on some manga also. I recently aquired the entire series of Love Hina from my friend Colby, and I paid only $75.00 for it. Pretty cheap for 14 volumes, eh? I'm glad I bought it, because I forgot how much I really love Love Hina! I've also been buying and reading slowly but surely Fruits Basket. Super cute manga, I love the bishounen-ey-ness of it. Yay for Yuki and Kyo. 8D

Kay, It's about time for me to end this obese blog. The avatar is me, of course. I should make that a tradition, it is my blog after all. Oh yeah, the title of this blog is "juturna" because I'm listening to Circa Survive. Woo! Kay, peace.

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